Having a friend that’s been through so much boy trouble really makes me kind of like an indirect experienced learner for the future.. There’s a hadith why we shouldn’t have relationships with boys before marriage because all Allah wants to do is save your heart from breaking apart over and over again. A lot of people don’t deserve it, a lot of good people. I wish they can just take gods will and let him figure out your fate for you, because it’s almost like a free ride. You sit back and just wait till’ your plan with love comes. That is some of the beauty in Islam.
Something that has been happening to me a lot is putting in so much effort into what seems like nothing. Honestly, I like doing it and I still do it knowing that the other person isn’t going to care. I worry about someones happiness more than how dissapointed I know I get afterwards, because I get nothing in return. I go to the extreme for that other person and all I get in return is ignorance and left unnoticed. I wish the people that do this to me realize all that effort I put in. It’s the never ending cycle.
Perks of having no followers on this thing; no one will read your stuff so this is kind of like my diary?
I’m not an active user, in fact when I made this account it was about a year and a half ago. Which explains my picture… Back when I cared about my looks haha. I feel like every girl goes through that phase where they can’t leave the house without eyeliner drawn on their eyes. Thank the lord I have gone to not care of what I look like. Acceptance is the beauty of yourself right?
So I have the urge to start venting, complaining, explaining, or just blogging my life away now. Thanks to a great friend who writes amazingly. Love you seewah lol.
experience is the best teacher. i don’t know how many lessons of experience i’ll need before i finally learn my lesson. i’ve been down this same road once too many times and i don’t want to go down it anymore. i’m tired of getting hurt, walked all over, and used. it’s not fair to me. i put in so…